Tears of a Thug (My tribute to Thug Love)

I need you baby girl to come back fo' me,
I need you to come and make me complete,
I need you so bad cause' I cry every night,
And if I shed one mo' tear Im surely to die,

Because my life is isnt so gravy,
When i dont wake up with you,
It aint tha same without ya baby,
Im imploring to God for you,

I know my past aint so perfect,
And that youre taught by my streets,
That if a thug seems to be perfect,
Its 'cause he lies and cheats,

But this nigga has changed fo' you,
Hes given it all up fo' you,
But you didnt do tha same,
And didnt fo'get tha silly ass games?

And i dont blame ya for that,
I did once have my game,
But youre too damn good for that,
You put my game to shame,

And everyone knows that a playa' dont cry,
Cause he cant swallow his pride,
and they let go of perfect ladies,
But I wont do that for ya baby....

Im on my knees and drowning in pain,
Im beggin for ya to please,
Dont let me die with my pain,
And let me not grieve,

I cant bear seeing you with another nigga,
And see you kiss his pain away,
While im in my room crying blood for ya,
And slowly drying up my veins,

Please tell me baby,
If i have a chance for you to come back..
Cause if i dont my dear sweet lady,
then i just wont look back....

I will sadly walk to my room,
And let go of my last hope,
Then one last time look at tha moon,
And that stars that fill tha night,

And when tommorrow comes,
and you dont see me on tha streets,
And you see all my homies,
Throwin that deuce up fo' me,

And when my mom calls you up,
And tells you with tears,
please dont be sad,
I have done what i need,

Dont listen to tha words,
that people will tell you,
It isnt yo' fault,
Dont let them get to you,

And when when tha rain touches youre eyes,
When you chillin' with ya new nigga,
Just look up at the heavenly skies,
And remember this nigga,

Cause every tear that hits the ground,
Is a tear that i have found,
The storm is the pain of this thug,
And the drops are tears, tears of a thug...

Dying Inside

I loved hearing your voice,
I loved feeling your skin.
I loved holding you close to me,
I cried when it came to an end.

If God made love,
and made it true.
Then why does he allow heartbreak,
and make us feel blue.

I see you everyday,
with your beautiful face.
I try to smile and play it off,
but I die standing their in my place.

I remember when I held you close,
so close I could feel you breathing.
But now I cant hold you close,
and my heart is torn out, bleeding.

My life is nothing,
nothing without you.
All of our memories,
is all I hold onto.


I'll Be There

When your looking at the stars, in the eternal blue
remember that each star out there is a reason why I love you
and when you think your alone, and when no one is there at all
ill be right in front of you, to catch you when you fall

Suicide

She knew it when she met him
From the very first time
They were meant to be together
There wasn't a doubt in her mind

From the first words that he spoke
She could hear it in his voice
She knew he felt the same way
It was a given, not by choice

Immediately they were together
The couple that everyone knew
There was an instant connection
And their friends could feel it too

People said it wouldn't work
Because they came from different places
But their love was everlasting
You could see it in their faces

Their parents saw it differently
Forbidding it to start
But their feelings were so strong
They couldn't keep them apart

Their parents went through everything
Thinking it couldn't last
Judging by accidents
With relationships in the past

It was like they'd known forever
This relationship was right
To him she was his princess
And to her he was her knight

And then they were finally separated
Both of their hearts being torn
It felt like tearing the petals off a rose
And being pricked by the thorn

They found a way to be together
Secretly meeting late at night
Making love until the sun rose
Holding each other tight

Finally they came to realize
This was no way to live
Secretly loving your soul mate
Was more effort then they could give

One night they went together
Bringing along a knife
Kissing each other good-bye
And taking each other's life

The plunging of the knife
Stood for the sacrifices they were making
And the pouring of their blood
Was for the measures they were taking

They held each other tightly
As they watched each other die
But they knew that this was better
Than living in a lie

Hours later they were found
No one knowing just why they died
But stories are going around
Of a lovers' suicide

About A Girl

Blessed be the one who dare
Not to hold a grudge or care
Condemmed are those who exercise
The right to jugde and purify

Catapillar throwing chunks
Girls who sleep around for fun
In and out, enter me
Going blind cease to see

Alas, could you purify
People of the darkened sky
They hear voices from their heart
Endless winter, far apart

Broken bloody veins, my friend
Always on your side again
I'm not bitter, not at all
Thrue the air, feather fall

I was angry with my girl
I could see her faking world
As I told her to be sorry
I gave to her a poisened berry

As she lays upon the floor
Twisting like the cheapest whore
My eyes were cold, without no worry
As I told her to be sorry

Don't Tell Me

Don't tell me you love me if you are not sincere
For a lie that strong can ruin my life and bring on a new fear.
Fear to be loved, fear to love ever again
It can cause my fragile heart to break, tear and bend.
Think of all in life that will be missed
because of one small broken promise
So, when I put all of my trust deep within you
Please don't tell me you love me, unless you truly do.

Why I Love You

Sometimes at night, when I look to the sky, I start thinking of you and then ask myself, Why do I love you? I think and smile, because I know the list could run on for miles.
The whisper of your voice, the warmth of your touch, so many little things make me love you so much.
The way you support me, even my silly notions. The way that you care and show such devotion, the way that your kiss, fills me with desire, and how you hold me with the warmth of a fire. The way your eyes shine when you look at me, lost with you forever is were I want to be. The way that I feel when your by my side. A sense of completion and overflowing pride.
The dreams that I dream, that all involve you, the possibilities I see, the things we can do. How you finish the puzzle that lies inside my heart. How deep in my soul, you are a very important part.
I could go on for days, telling of what I feel, but all you really must know is... my love for you is real.

Until We Meet

Until we meet
My nights will be a little colder
My days a little shorter
My heart will beat a little less rapid
Until we meet
I know that my arms will be empty
My mind hurting from the constant thought of you
Minutes will seem to be hours
Hours will seem to be months
While months will seem like eternity
Until we meet
The stars in the sky will not affect me
with its gleaming sparkles of life

Until I am gazing at them in your arms
And the food that I eat will not be as fulfilling and nourishing
Until it is you that I share the my food with
And Until we meet
I will not feel whole
My world will seem incomplete
Until that wonderful day
When our eyes make first contact
And our bodies and souls collide in blissful whirlwind
The words will roll off my tongue like a sweet love song

My Love For You

My love for you is deep and true.
No matter what you do,
I'll always be there for you.
No matter where you may ride,
I'll always be right there by your side.
And till the day that I die,
My love will always stay true to you.

Lies

You lied and said you cared,
You said you loved me,
You said you wanted to be together,
You said you couldn't live without me,
But you know what's the worst of all,
I believed all your lies,
I believed them one by one,
And each one hurt as bad as the first,
Each one stung just as badly,
They tore at my very soul, my self-esteem,
They tore me up they tore me apart.

Your Everything

Your hair is thin like strands of silk,
Your eyes smash into mine like a crashing wave,
Your lips shine crimson like a fire waiting to be put out,
Your skin so soft and smooth reminds me of a new born,
Your voice echoes like a songbird in the early morning,
Your body is succulent like a gourmet feast fit for a king,
But you, you are like a new religion that I will worship,
And your love a driving force that will keep me alive until the end of time.

Heart

I knew there was something...
between you and him,
But I grew to like you so.
I'm sorry i listened to my heart.

I knew I really shouldn't
have tried anything at all,
But i wanted to be with you.
I'm sorry i followed my heart.

I knew you didn't like me,
much less even care,
But I dared to test my chance.
I'm sorry i think with my heart.

I knew of the grey skies,
that trailed your very path.
But i couldn't find reality.
I'm sorry i see with my heart.

I really should have known,
that I didn't have a chance.
But that's just me.
I'm sorry i have a heart.

Death

Within the overwhelming darkness,
The hot tears flowing,
Down my face,
Mixed with blood from my enemies,
I close my eyes through the pain,
As blood trickles onto the dirty ground.

Within the darkness of hate,
Taunting is heard,
Nothing will ever go away,
In this damned place.

Just here to,
Break you,
Kill you,
With Death's light,
For my guide.


Truth

I could have sworn just a little, you did care;
It turned out you have nothingness to spare;
Nothing to say, do, or dare.

The things I thought were somethings;
They are all just pitiful nothings,
Nothing that me think somethings,

I thought you understood,
Why I did all the things I could,
The things I thought I should.

In the end it was nothing at all;
You mangled me to a broken doll;
Never recovering from its last fatal fall.

From you, I ask one final question,
Was it great to see me be afraid, then run?
I think finally you may have realized what you have done.

My Special Someone

You are my inspiration
having you in my life
revived my sleeping devotion
You are indeed a special someone

Loving you gives me hope
to free this misery that I coped
in those times I gave up
You came and I stood up

Never will I forget
how you always cheer me up
every time I'm sad
and for that I'm glad

Whenever I'm lonely
You were there for me
keeping my heart alive
with your every smile

I dedicate this poem to you
to show how much you meant
to me I love you
My special someone

Looking In Your Eyes

I see an island retreat.
I see a heart that cannot be beat.

The finest diamond,
The most perfect pearl,
No one ever could,
Compare to you girl.

I see heaven on earth,
Fresh clean mountain air,
Flowers in bloom,
Soft drifting clouds on a clear blue sky.

I see all this and more when I look in your eyes.

My Dove
Your sweetness keeping in mind
I dream to see you once again
I want your love and be so kind
That overcome all hurt and pain

Your image keeps me busy always
With heart connected to your love
My joy, my peace and all I wanted
I find in you my precious dove

The Biggest Mistake

We were the best of friends sometimes,
And sometimes we weren't.
You meant the world to me but I had trouble expressing my feelings,
You were always treating me with class,
And I treated you like trash.
Yet, still somehow you were my friend.
Until I made a mistake and yeah it was dumb,
But I never knew what would happen.
I could not predict that you would get hurt,
But I had to choose someone and I chose wrong.
So I thought about how to make things right,
Ever since I broke your heart I always tried to think of how to make you smile again,
And now you're there rejecting me and I can see why,
But you have no clue how badly I want to show you that I have changed.

The New Age

This is another day of infamy,
A day I will never forget,
A day I must forget.

They have waited thirteen years,
We have waited twelve,
And now it is our time.

So many smiles,
Yet so many tears,
All of this throughout the years.

Time to reach deep down,
Time to move on.
Time to grow up and be leaders on our own..

Deeper Meanings

A part of me wants to be comfortable and familiar...
I seek tenderness, while my heart is in despair.
Wanting to run to the fields, and drive to the mountains...
I search for the answers; I cross the bridge, and climb the fence.
Totally bare and open, exposed to the world....
Wanting to love, to run, to be free, oh... this lost little girl.
Should I go back to familiarity in my practical world?
Here I will cling to my creativity and learn how to pale...
All the while leaping into myself and crawling like a snail...
Why do I feel this, nay... what should I do?
For no-one can see this I carry, my hidden tattoo.
It's me, and me alone ... to further my search...
I may not be understood, but this I will learn,
to love, and to laugh and to commit no sin.
I want to bury myself or let someone in!!
Oh destiny betroths me I beg!
Give me a chance, let me breathe, let me go...
I will be enemy to none, I will be sunshine...
To lay upon the hillside, the mountain tops,
across the lakes and ocean, and into the sublime;
A ray of sun...a token of my life, the lips to my mouth.

In Love with You

My heart is bound to you.
My dreams have all come true.
My body feels as if it has begun anew.
I am in love with you.

You are the girl I want to kiss.
You are the girl that brought me bliss.
You are the girl I always miss.
I am in love with you.

Who else could I want more in life?
Who else could I want more as a wife?
Who else can cure my strife?
I am in love with you.

One Last Moment

Your skin.
My skin.
Our Skin.
Shock. Quick breath.
Warmth. Flowing.
Closed eyes. Mouth Open.
Eyelash flutter. Exhale.
And you think if you hold tight enough,
You'll never have to let go.
Stop Frame. Eternity.

You Left Me

What I felt before was wrong,
Because I thought of you as a sun,
And I lost my wish in our fighting bliss,
You left me all alone with nothing and no reasons.

Someday soon for sure you'll forget me,
And I'm surely hoping you won't but it's not up to me,
But yeah you had me threatened by many but its fine,
Because you always meant so much inside of me.

People say I'm foolish to care,
Calling you a stupid bitch and a whore,
But I know you prude and none of that,
Err, but I'd love to say what they say about you.

I wish this was easier than it is,
And you know maybe it is,
But when you've known someone for three years;
It's just a little hard to just hate them quickly.

Blue Eyes

All my life thus far,

I have looked near and afar,

For someone as remarkable as you,

I knew ever since I stared into that sea of powder blue.

No other event or soul can replace the enthrallment,

For the joy from love I feel is permanent,

And every time you touch me or even look my way,

My heart always seems to distract my mind to keep it at bay.

You are my only one and that is certain,

When you are around my heart is not tame,

As long as you are by my side,

My life should move smoothly in stride.

Twisted Revenge

So whisper to me like you mean it,
And I'll whisper my reply in return..
But why can't we scream out loud.
When will you ever learn?
When all that I have is broken,
And all I can keep is my voice,
I want to scream at the top of my lungs,
And hurt you, but it's not my choice.

Sweet Song

A feeling felt across
the miles. Passion,
Lust, sex
toy with me.
With your trim frame tone and
your care free smile, sing
for me, please.
I want to hear,
the music of your sex.
Pounding,
against mine, the rhythm
of our
skin, as you scratch
your way down
my spine. Touch me
here. Take me
there. My
breath on
your breasts, would bring
ecstasy. But your touch,
almost death.
Sing the music,
of sex
to me, beautiful one.
Sing me
your song.